*End Of Orientation*

Hi friends!
End of orientation week, *finally*!
It was a long and tiresome process, involving dozens of lectures, often repeating the same thing. There were social mixers also, dance cum stand around and watch others dance type thinges, and many aimless drives around campus, perfectly sober**. But I've made alot of new friends this week, some of whom will phase out by the end of the month, and some lifelong ones with whom I hope to share the most happy, and sad, moments of my life.

The one thing that struck me quite forcibly during the course of the week was the fact that, try as I might, there are certain things about myself that I simply cannot change.

There are people in my life that I just cannot walk away from.

Trust, to me, is the most important aspect of a relationship. It is based on the pre-assumption that I wont fall down that I choose to sit in a chair, I trust that the chair will carry my weight. Likewise, I presume certain things about people in my life. For example, honesty.

It is therefore based on honesty that I choose to be sincere also, I trust that both our intentions are pure.

My ultimate goal would then be to understand and appreciate you as a person, and love you for who you are, whatever the case may be.

In an imperfect world, however, presumptions are based on pre-conceived prejudices which we already hold.
Concepts that are drilled into our minds from the start of our lives to the very end, prejudices which we try to fight but which exist nonetheless.
What we might like to call our 'instincts' are infact judgements we have already passed about things that we perhaps do not understand, things which we infact are in no position to be judgemental about.

**What makes me a better person than you?**
The fact that I have the right to claim that I made better choices than you?
Or the fact that the choices I have made have made me a better person?

Truthfully, I'm hurt by the fact that you chose not to trust me. Not because your presumptions led you to believe that I held prejudices against the person that you are, but because I know that your presumptions were right, and I failed myself, and my maxim, by not understanding that in trusting me, the judgements I passed against you would have caused me to fail to see you as the

Beautiful
Intelligent
Thoughtful
Funny
and Kind person
that I now know you to be.

**my deepest regret would have been not having you in my life**